what about me?

i've spent a lot of my life trying to define and create who i am when really all i needed to do was let my ego go. i have vivid memories of being a 4 year old girl. and as i release my ego i am discovering things about me i had forgotten. the me then is my best reference for the true me. i talked to God nightly, for hours. honestly most of the time i didn't fall asleep until my dad left for work at 530 am. then i would wake a few hours later bright and shiny and play all day long. it shows me that you don't need anything more than a solid relationship with God to survive on this crazy planet. during those hours i spent with God, i was not always talking sometimes i was doing yoga (though then i didn't know that's what it was called) sometimes i was battling demons. sometimes i'd hide under my covers and pray for the darkness to go away. i always have had excellent night vision and when i was little, if it got dark at night... it was the space around me being filled with negative forces of the world. not just a room with all the lights turned off. in a lot of ways i appreciate the development of my ego and the huge break i took away from God. it was the only (or maybe just the easiest) way for me to relate to most everybody else on this planet. back then i didn't like most people because they "were stupid" and i felt uncomfortable even around my own family. i always felt out of place and awkward. i felt misunderstood and frustrated with my status on earth. my break away from God, and myself, was my time to learn to relate to the people around me. i learned to accept people with their faults. i stopped caring so much that this person was stupid or dishonest or mean. i learned to stop judging other people so harshly because i learned to judge myself and find faults in myself. i didn't like the way i made myself feel so why would i ever do that to other people? i went through a period of time when i kept meeting people that reminded me of exactly how i was and would be pleasantly surprised to find such a person. now i realize the naivety in being surprised about that. we're all exactly the same because we are all one under the Love of God. it's no surprise to come across people that have developed similarly to the way i did. so about me? i am just like you. whatever you find in yourself you will find in me and whatever you see in me, you can find in yourself. OneLove