Happy Friday!!!!!!!! Good Friday!!!!!!!!!

I am ridiculously happy today. Just a warning... this letter may be very random and scatter-brained; Truly reflecting my state of mind at all times... haha.

So I put in my letter of resignation to my work already. My last day is July 31, 2009 and I am sooooooooooo excited. Tyler and I are going to buy an RV in May. That will be our home until we move to Hawaii. I am not EXACTLY SURE on the plans but here is what is tentative:

August I am staying local and Jonica will be staying with us. September we will be working odd jobs and selling crafts for funds to embark on our journey northward. (we'll already have a good amount of savings with the two months we'll be out of mom's and be working our normal full time jobs) We plan to be in Cortez to visit family for Thanksgiving. And head to Washington following to visit Barb and Charlotte. Between Cortez and Washington we may or may not embark to visit Kurtiss in Kansas. From Washington we will earn money for either a sail boat or cruiser to get over to Hawaii. The big island. I will probably ask Grams for contact information for uncle Jerry.  Not to mooch or anything. But since we will be there I would like to get to know them.

A lot of people are being really skeptical about the feasibility of living free from a committed job but I have done a great deal of research and know what is required. All you need in life is ambition. Job security is for un-ambitious people or people with a family to support. Which neither express the character of Tyler and I at this point in time. So, DON'T WORRY. I know what I am doing and I'm super confident about it.

Moving forward: We have so many great ideas about how we are going to make money, support our belief system AND stay Earth friendly!!!!

I am going to collect stuff from the Craig'slist "free" section, thrift stores, garbage dumps and garage sales and re-vamp it using puffy paint and my incredible art skills and then turn around and sell the items at concerts, music festivals, desert parties, beach scenes (like Venice), art boutiques and Ebay. I want to promote health and spirituality and all that jazz in the mean time too. So my boutique will be quite the place to visit. I am sooooooooooo excited!!! It's all I've been thinking about for months now.

There's this study that a Japanese scientist did on water and applying certain mental energies and so fourth to it. You probably read the blog, "Considering our bodies are 90% water" Well I am going to take that concept and buy bottles of water, take the labels off and paint words like peace and love and "Thank God for Water" on them and sell those with a little tag describing that study the Japanese guy did. One example of how I plan to promote health etc. And that will be a huge seller at desert parties and stuff.

There are TONS more ideas like that. Plus Tyler has great experience doing construction and stuff so in any time of difficulty we can just check out whatever local areas need construction help and I can wait tables or do some office work for a few months.

The most amazing thing will be no obligations. Well virtually none. Registration will always be current. Insurance will always be current. So no law evading will be happening... We'll try to provide our own food and shop farmer's markets. We'll probably have one or two chickens that we will just keep in a kennel like a small dogs'. Of course they will have their freedom too. We're going to have solar panels. So it's just a one time upfront cost. Etc. We're being so smart about it. I feel soooo good. I just know it's God's calling. I know we as a team have the power to change lives and help so many people. Even if only by touching the hearts of others... God will make sure we're fine... He's got us on anything we've missed.

The union between me and Tyler is so special. The article I read on Twin Flames and how their love has the power to heal the world, I really believe that to be true and have already seen so many signs that we really are healers. Mom is doing amazingly better and seems to be getting better slowly but surely. Some friends' marriage was on the rocks and then they started hanging out with us all the time and they are sooooo much better now. Not that we lay claim to it's fixing but they've mention what a good impact we make on them. It's really a great thing to feel so happy all the time, no matter what's going on. Not to say there aren't sour days. But I don't think I will ever go back to feeling as depressed and confused as I was before Tyler and I were together.

I think about you all the time and you have no idea how grateful I am to you for supporting my individuality. I don't think I would be as happy with myself and comfortable about my uniqueness if it weren't for your influence. Honestly. You are the # 1 person that has instilled in me the values I have, the ambition, compassion, love, intelligence, openmindedness pretty much all the good things about me. ( I love my Daddy)

I had a flash back the other day. (I've been getting them a lot lately) I know my soul is aged for sure now. When I was 4 and 5 was a period in my life I define as my ultimate self. That's the true me to the core. Ego-free and everything. The drawings Mom saved from that time are priceless to me because they really helped put me back in touch with my true nature. It has been tainted for some time now by things I call black memories. I could cry... So anyway I used to talk to God for hours before I fell asleep I did this up until I was about 9. 14 was the absolute cut off. Not saying I abandoned God after that point. Just became so mentally distracted I stopped talking to Him. So anyway. I was 4 or 5 lying in my bed talking to God and I was telling him, in paraphrase:

God,

I know why you put me here. I still remember. But I am getting older and I can feel things creeping up on me. I am scared. I am becoming lost and feel my purpose trying to escape me.

And I'm just now starting to remember an elaboration:

I am forgetting the face of the man I am supposed to find. How am I going to find him? This world is so big!

Trippy shit, I guess but I swear it's true. I have the most impeccable memory. When I do remember that is. Haha. God talks back too. You have to be really open to listen but I remember his response that night was for me not to worry. And something to the effect, it will all unfold as it should. He talks to Tyler. Most strongly when we are tripping.  He tells Tyler some crazy stuff too. Always good of course. How can it not be, coming from God and all.  Haha I think one of the funniest things Ty told me God told him was that curse words are ok to use. He made them... they are there for our use. Just, like with anything... don't abuse them. God has a sense of humor. :D